Half way there

Well made it through the first half of the dreaded 2 week wait.  Unfortunately I've been sick through most of it.  I caught a stupid cold that just doesn't seem to want to let go.  At first it was more of a head cold and now it's moved down to my lungs.  And of course I can't take anything to help with the symptoms.  I really hope I am suffering through this for a reason!

My spirits so far have been good.  I've been trying to not get my hopes up too much but it's been hard not to.  I catch myself getting hopeful and excited but I keep trying to push that part down and away but it's definitely there.  I'm just so scared of being hurt again.   I am also very scared to test now and I almost prefer not knowing it's better than knowing it didn't work but on the flip side if it did,  I'd like to know sooner rather than later!