This sucks

It is never a good sign when the doctor themselves calls you.

Of the 9 eggs retrieved,  8 were mature but only 2 fertilized.  Because of the huge drop off, it's up in the air if we'll even have anything to transfer by Wednesday.

Basically the odds of being successful this cyle has gone completely down the tubes.

I'm devastated, I can't help but feel that our ectopic pregnancy was the closest we'll ever get to success.

Glad that's over with

Well I for one am super happy this morning is over with.  The part everyone is interested in,  we had 9 eggs retrieved.  We should get a call tomorrow to find out how many fertilized.

The morning started ok,  I couldn't sleep much last night but thankfully we were the first ones in.

The nurse who was there today appparanly is not super good at putting in IVs.  I have small, deep,  rolly veins.  Not so good to get an IV in on someone who couldn't eat or drink for the last 12 hours.  I seriously think she was about to give up but thankfully after about 15 minutes she finally got the IV in. (and actually did a good job,  no bruise!)

We then got to speak to the doctor and I expressed my concerns regarding how much the retrieval hurt last time so they agreed to add some Ketamine to mix of meds.

We were then brought into the procedure room and they administered all the fancy drugs.  I loved the drugs,  they definately made me completely out of it.  The only problme was,  by the time they started,  the drugs were already wearing off!  They didn't believe me but my husband could also for sure tell.  I guess I metabolize the stuff much faster than the average person.

So overall if anything I found this time to be even more painful than the last.  They had issues draining the follicles for some reason and also ended up changing the needle like 2 or 3 times.  I don' t remember that happening last time for sure.   The procdure itself ended up taking more time than the last.

Now that it's over,  I am in quite a bit of pain.  Last time I had some menstrual type cramps for the rest of the day but nothing a heating pad couldn't help with.  This time I could barely move up until about a half hour ago and the heating pad and tylenol were not cutting it.  Thankfully I seem to have turned the corner and am feeling quite a bit better and now able to sit up and write this!


I am also a little disappointed about the amount of eggs retrieved.  I know 9 is a good number but last time all the follicles had eggs and they didn't this time.  I can't help but wonder if the follicles they had issues draining were the culprit?

Let's just hope all those 9 fertilize and keep growing until day 5!  Now we just wait and see.

Milk of Magnesia sucks!

Well the trigger shot went fine last night.  Woohoo,  no more giving myself needles for a bit :)

The part that didn't go so well was the milk of magnesia.  The clinic requires you to take this stuff the night of the trigger to "clear the pipes" so to speak before the egg retrieval .  Well apparanly my stomach did not like it and it came right back up about 10 seconds later.

I called the clinic first thing this morning to make sure it was ok and see if there was something else I could take.  Thankfully they said that since I'm not backed up, there shouldn't be a problem.  Phew.

Of course,  when it comes to super greasy foods I have a stomach of steel but a little bit of medication with a bad taste and it's game over.

Trigger tonight!

Woohoo!,  only one more injection left and that's the trigger shot!

Today's U/S showed 10 follicles over 15mm nicely bunched together and about 3-4 more just little further behind but should be ready by retrieval day :)

Egg Retrieval is scheduled for Sunday morning at 8:30 (first one of the day) :)

I was finding the injections were starting to hurt again for some reason to the point I think my husband was going to have to start giving them to me because I was starting to chicken out.  With just one more to go, I think I can handle it.

Walking like an old lady!

Well I woke up this morning and man those ovaries are sooo sore.  The motion of just walking hurts!
I don't remember this happening like this last time,  maybe it's because I have more follicles this time?  Of course now I am wondering if this is normal

Meanwhile I am getting weird looks at the office since I am walking soooo slowly :P

Walking on air :)

U/S #3 went great! Lots of follicles showing up now (over 10 for sure,  too many dots too count) and nicely grouped together (at the 12-14mm mark,  over 15 is mature and ready to trigger).

Last cycle I responded to the meds way better than the doctors ever thought I would.  I was so scared that it would have been a fluke.  Well turns out maybe it wasn't because this time it's going even better!  More follicles at this point and much nicer grouping (growing at same rate).  I have no hogs so far this time that are taking up all the hormones and running away.  I like it when the follies share :P

My lining is also looking great and thicker than last time so hopefully there will be a nice cushy place for the little embies to snuggle.

Please, Please keep going like this!  I am walking on air for now.  I've been down for so long that to finally get some good news like this is almost overwhelming.  It feels weird to be happy!   I know things can change on a dime,  it's the nature of infertility but I am chosing to enjoy this for now. (I am weepy as I write this,  man I am officially hormonal, lol)

The doctor also re-confirmed how much of a good sign it was that we conceived last time.  Even though the outcome sucked, it showed we CAN get good eggs, good embryos.  The fact that the little guy snuggled and thrived in such a hostile environment (my tube) demonstrates for sure we can make good embryos.

Next U/S is Friday.  We get a break tomorrow since based on last cycle's response I showed we can get good eggs out of slightly larger follicles.  We are triggering probably Friday or Saturday with the retrieval being Sunday/Monday.

Starting to get uncomfortable

I am starting to really feel those ovaries.  Up until now it's mostly only been when I am laying down but not anymore.  It's quite the weird feeling,  it sort of feels like right before I ovulate pain combined with pre-period bloating all at the same time.   Not super painful just makes me unconfortable. 

I am also starting to run out of room to inject on my stomach!   I can't help but wonder what happens if I do it too many times in one spot if there are issues.  I find in some areas it stays marked for longer so I'll avoid that bruise / welt area but other times there's nothing so it looks like a clear spot and I just keep injecting there until it goes bad!  Argh,  the silly things I worry about  :P

u/s # 3 is tomorrow morning, 2.5 more days of work until I am off for 6 work days :)